It feels like it never ends. Being beaten down trying to catch a win. I’ve always been relentless in my stance, always moving forward with my plans. These plans often have me on the sacrificing end. Never on the forefront, always holding scraps. It’s with these pieces I piece together what I can. Letting others walk away with the richness they took from my hands. I just stand and I watch. It’s not that I don’t see. I just sometimes refuse to accept reality. As these words flow from my heart I know that this self harming has to stop. The day has come where nothing will ever be the same because I now answer to a new name. Call I will not come, reach and I won’t be there. On this day I declare, I will put me first. I will choose me like god chose to make heaven and earth.